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I've heard of some weird therapy that can apparently fix guys to becoming straight, but it sounds too good to be true, or bollocks is probably a better way of summarizing it. Linda hunt sex tape. I am still a virgin and have never even been kissed. I've been attracted to a few guys. The attraction does feel normal.
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I feel like I'm climbing more and more into the closet.
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